Another End, Another Beginning

April is done and I am glad.

Sometimes you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and you know the day is going to just be rough.

Imagine that for a whole month.

Given the fact that many of the circumstances are still present in my daily life, it’s still up to me to make this month significantly less terrible.

However, I can literally feel heaviness lifted from my shoulders. There’s something about closing a chapter and beginning a new one that brings even a placebo effect of better-ness.

I learned a lot last month about my limits, my values, and how I work. This month will involve taking proactive steps to apply the things I learned in order to not make the same mistakes.

Fresh starts don’t fix anything on their own.

Fresh starts combined with fresh insight, fresh motivation to change, and a fresh plan of action to enact that change is what fixes things.

Also—finding the root cause of your issue and addressing that.

I haven’t done that yet. I didn’t even think about that until I started writing a sentence along the lines of, “A new day, month, job, town, or relationship won’t fix your problems until you deal with the root of the issue—otherwise the problem at hand will just follow you to the next job/town/etc.”

And then I realized that I haven’t figured out my root issue yet, which is a good reminder to do so because I don’t want to have another ridiculously rough month.

Anyway. If you’re starting something new, or trying to change something established, enjoy the high associated with the fresh start/blank page. But make sure you have a structure set up to support you once the high fades off and you’re left with nothing but your old habits and ways of doing things.

On a side note, here’s to daily writing again. Also, a 4:30 morning tomorrow. Happy May!